Whats my Vice???

I must say that God's greatest Plant, Momma Ganja is my biggest vice(if you want to call it a Vice.)
I became a medical marijuana patient in the state of California, under the senate bill 420, and Prop. 215. I was now 24, and suffering from sever gallstones and biliary colic.

I soon began to see the benefits of this "vice" for a lot of my aliments. At this time, i also stopped taking sleeping pills to sleep at night. I thought to myself, this is truly a gift of the gods. soon, i was no longer in need of pain meds to manage my gallstones while i was awaiting my surgery. It was truly amazing.

About a month after i became a Legal patient under state law, i became heavily involved in "the cause." I became the manager of my local marijuana dispensary, and learned the in's and out's of the business. I worked with people from all walks of life, including stage 4 cancer patients, Several people with MS, Terminally ill patients with ailments such as inoperable tumors and such, and even a very famous director, who has a sever case of turrets syndrome, and uses marijuana to control the verbal outbursts, and physical twitches involved with his disease. (he was my favorite, he would smoke a little cannabis, and suddenly the vulgar slurs and distracting grunts and moans that usually would come out of him turned into him whistling a beautiful rendition of Beethoven's symphony #5)

In conclusion, I would like to say that my vice provides me with medical relief, peace of mind, a creative outlook on life, and most of all, patience, understanding, and compassion for all living things. I cant say that I've meet many people in bars that have the same results with their use of alcohol. And i can guarantee that it would be like looking for a needle in a hay stack trying to find a user of any other substance that carried the same life values as the average daily cannabis user.

Let your controlling influence fight the condemnations…

Delve deep into your somber soul

What keeps you young, will also make you old

Don’t be denied, the devil may care

Tribulation arrives when all is fair



Before evening tide, after the evening feast

Recollection will apprise the beast

From your spring of charm, conjure a friend

Ask if this is the start or is this the end



Send your lucid eyes to the periphery of life

Sustain yourself sturdily, along shall come strife

Never languish before your weakened peers

Loath the master that brings forth those fears



The simplicity of a vulgar display

Feel antipathy when you don’t get your way

For simple minds or petty impressions

Don’t enter into the day of misconceptions



Coming forth into a new age of prodigy

Say farewell to your worthless commodities

Bewildered by the fog and the misty haze

You have no time for one of those days



Form your perseverance into a sanctioned emotion

Hear with intention and steadfast your devotion

Validate your senseless trepidations

Let your controlling influence fight the condemnations…

Very Sad.

Your someone i once thought i knew
It blew my mind
when you proved
I really have no clue.

I have an expectation
maybe even a demand.
Participation in the life we've built
Not just a stand up man.

I love your family just as mine,
As you should so do the same.

Your astounding in so many ways,
I've kinda let that bit slide.
This has really forced me to open my eyes
If your not on their side, how can you be on mine?

Are you There? I cant seem to Hear you.
Are you here? I cant Feel you.
Please let me see the one i love
My everything in life
Send this alter ego of yours
On a one way flight.

Your such a devoted father,
And always an amazing partner.
I love you dearly,
but have been having a trembling fearful feeling.

Is this not the life you had in mind?
Are you here to stay,
Or will you too be on that one way flight?

I have let you in
Given all of myself to you.
Does our beautiful family
Just not motivate you?

It seems we just don't do it for you
Are we not what you had dreamed we would be.

these doubts,
a faint echo of them in my bewildered mind.
At a Crucial place in life
So important to the structure of our future.
I want you here.. But i want YOU

You used to admire me
When you looked me in the Eyes,
Now you Hardly look my way.
You used to make me feel adored.
Now i just feel like your getting bored.

No sparkle in your eye,
No slightly cocky grin..
No more head held high
No more Manly strut

Are you lost in the hustle?

Where is my muscle?
I've always felt safe,
Have never had to doubt
This is something
YOU would never ever allow..

That doubt is eating me alive..
We need to speak,
We need to love,
We need to remember..
Don't you remember?
When we wanted no world around us
Nobody but us.

I miss my lover,
Our never ending bond.....
I would give anything in the world
To feel like I have a friend.
If I don't have you, who do I turn to.

I'm in this to win it,
Failure has always seemed like an illusion.
These are choppy waters,
Tender, sensitive emotions for me.

If my tears aren't proof, what could I show you.

I've lost you along this road........

My night in shining armor,
My prince charming,
My other half,
The completion of my soul...

I miss you dearly
A simple solution is what i seek
Let's have a never-ending embrace
That will magically erase
This tragic case Of mental dis-embrace.

People are judgmental, regardless

But it's not always a bad thing.

We judge others to be kind.
We judge others to be wise.
We judge people to be beautiful.
We judge if people are funny.

We use our judgment and assess each other all the time. It's too bad that "judgment" has only been associated with negatives.

My ideal Super Bowl halftime show would include Adam Lambert

Adam Lambert
have you seen this kid.. he's the best thing thats happend to american idol since .... ever.

Trent Reznor
because two hot men with guy liner are better than one.

David Bowie..
Now that would be a Power House performance!

Isn't everyone afraid of Nuclear war?

I've had this fear since i've been old enough to understand that we are vulnerable every second of every day to an Nuclear war. The though of this is very frighting. However, I am not so consumed by the thought of it that it interferes with my daily life.

My first job: Hollywood Video

I was 15, and i was the girl that got to put all your movies back on the shelves in alphabetic order. i worked there for 6 months, and then ended up getting a job at Petsmart as a dog washer, and was soon promoted to a full service groomer. Worked there for the next three years. I then switched companies to a competitor. I groomed dogs full time for the next year and a half at Petco.